My state of mind
i feel the rush of the waves on my skin but i dont really feel them. i dont comprehend anything anymore. i hate the fact that im still breathing this bitter-sweet air. i wish it would all stop. the world is all a blur around me and it gives me a headache. i eat but food has no taste to me unless she is there with me but i know she will never be there again. i wish i could see her again, feel her touch, and for any sign that she knows im still alive. i wish i could make everything ok again but without her im lost. i wish i could end my suffering but i guess i deserve it.
